it rained almost the entire day yesterday*
Yesterday was just one of those days.
One of those days in which, no matter how many lists I made - in my head, or on paper - I just couldn't bring myself to do, well... anything.
I find myself at odds with myself [yikes, awkward wording], because at my core, I am two very different people. One of them is a type-A, obsessive compulsive neat freak perfectionist who wants everything to be just so & always in order. The other one enjoys long naps on the couch & procrastinating to the Nth degree.
How did I end up with these two very different aspects of one personality? Well, if I'm honest, I believe that I've grown to use procrastination as a coping mechanism for the stress that obsessive compulsive thoughts & behaviors cause. If I can't do everything perfectly, maybe I just won't do it at all. That's a thought that drives my day-to-day life at times. And, obviously, that's a problem. I mean, it's not exactly conducive to getting things done that need to be done [like the enormous pile of clean laundry in our guest bedroom that is wrinkling up as we speak].
I realize that neither extreme I turn to is correct, or positive, or productive. It is my hope that eventually I will stumble across an effective method for balance & productivity. Until then, it's back to the drawing board...
Tell me, how do you amp up your productivity, even on days when it feels impossible to do absolutely anything right?
photo: rainy panes \ nikon
suggested song: mama said [there'd be days like this] by the shirelles
*so yeah, there was that, too.